Am I becoming an alcoholic?

Dude- your are right to ask. Alcoholism is characterized by exactly that kind of behavior. This is the time to get some help. Good for you for not being in denial. If you can't find anyone else, there is always AA. Look up your local meeting. Believe me - I am a recovering alcoholic. I started in college, didn't deal with it , and ended up loosing everything. Please keep on being smart - you know what is going on, and you can get it under control now, before it's too late!