Girl help someone please help me.?

Ugh someone help me. im so tired here. Okay here's my story. i moved away and at my new home i was starting middle school. when i moved here i fell for this girl(bridget). she was the most beautifulest girl i ever seen. i at the time had some issue about being popular. i was a nerd and she was the best girl in the world. but that was all going to change. i met this other girl(alexis) who happen to be best friends with that girl(bridget)! alexis started to talk to me and we became good friends during the end of middle school. not only that i knew her boyfriend alex which was my best friend too! i was living it up. anyways this girl i totally had a crush on was amazing. i did every cute thing you come imagine. i actually ran away when she called my name. :P. i was shy and nervous. but she changed my life that year. i never felt like this. SO later on i found out she had a boyfriend but broke up with him. but then she went out again with him. over summer i got to know bridget, alexis, alex and they've became close to me. i try'd to get over bridget cus she was taken but i always had some feelings for her. any ways freshmen year she ended it forever with her boyfriend and i felt so bad for her but i was to scared to step in. so after long freshmen year came sopre year. and she've try'd to find a boyfriend but wasn't too lucky. jerky guy after jerky guy... when she felt soo low that she will never find someone again, i got the guts and went and bought ice cream in the rain and took it too her house(walking) to cheer her up. be there for her. and this is the start. she then started likeing me. ME! and i also found out i was in the back of her mind. :D! i was so happy. so then next couple of months i started to get to know bridget. ugh she was amazing. later on feb 30th i asked her out on a bridge over a creek and we wrote our names on the bridge. WHO would have thought! 8th grade i was the nerd and she was the cutest girl ever and now she's mine! she's my cutie. i never say i love you but i honestly think i love her. she was my first girlfriend. my first kiss and first person to get pervy with haha. we were teens mad in love(at least i was). i was her first everything, beside her first boyfriend. i was her first everything(i think you get me). it was a dream come true. i was on top of the world but that all came down on me. she started to get confused.... and .... she ended it with me... huhhhh...... hurts. i get lumps in my neck at this part. its been 2 months now and i cant get over her. i try'd so hard. whats wrong with me :/. its summer and i don't have anything to do. i dream about her. i accept that its over but.. i cant get over her. i can go on for hours on how my teen life links with hers. and how she's changed me and the same to her. all these time. 4 years.. 4 is a lot and i liked her since. ugh when she was sad i walked in the rain and got her, her favorite flowers and brought it too her. ugh someone please. what is wrong with me. i cant get over her. i really wish i was still with her... im so tired on trying. i just wanna stop talking with her and see if she'll miss me.... what im asking is, what do i do. how do i let her go. what if i cant. i don't think i can. im told im a really kind boy. not like any other guy. please someone help(short story version)